December 2010
54 posts
I feel pretty pathetic right now.
new thing I realized about myself
When I’m tired all the truth comes out. I start to be brutally honest and I will just text people stuff that i should just keep to myself…I really need to work on that.
I don’t know how many wrong choices it’s going to take for me to learn from them. So here I am sitting on my couch on vacation crying. Crying because I made yet another bad decision. and trusted that someone wouldn’t hurt me, but they did…It’s completely his fault but I can’t help but feeling like is mine.
Dear New Hampshire,
I love you. and you make me happy. even though you are freezing and windy and almost gave me frostbite today when I was skiing, your still awsome. Vacation is going wonderfully so far.
sincerly,
Shannen
WHEN I WAS YOUR AGE...: I Believed In Magic →
Abracadabra has ruined the art of magic.
That’s because magic isn’t embedded in a cutesy catch phrase, or a deck of trick cards. To me, magic is a force. Something that weaves through space and time, effortlessly. Sometimes that force crash lands in the bedroom of a young artist. …
Today
I am 17 and half…Happy Half Birthday to me
going insane
I am dying to get out of this town right now..I freakin love the snow but I think we have enough and it should stop now. I can’t enjoy it knowing I could be in New Hampshire right now having fun. I really hope things clear up tomorrow or my mom won’t let me drive up…I hate missing out on things. Like tonight one of my friends who’s up in waterville texted me.. “Wanna...
I left cookies for Santa
I know its probably stupid to some people but I like to pretend that Santa exist…in some shape or form, Maybe just in spirit, I think he really does. I don’t even remember when I found out the truth but ever since then I still kept going on like he was real. I always, always leave cookies and milk. except this year I left cookies and water, because Ryan told me not to use his milk....
I’m so overtired….I keep doing and saying really stupid things
Step one
I’m going to buy a pair of skis…and I am going to use them every chance I get. until till they fall apart. I used to love skiing. I need to start immursing myself in all the things that used to make me happy and find new things too! Maybe snowboarding?! = D
Thought of the day about my life.
So for some reason I just read my college essay…I honestly haven’t looked at it since november 1st…I’ve was afraid to look at it and then all the sudden hate it. But know that I have gotten in basically everywhere I want to go I just decided to read it…..I started crying…It was like as I was reading it I had a huge flashback..It wasn’t what I wrote that...
I’ve been losing my grasp on things lately. I don’t know why but I feel like i’m falling apart. I just need to feel better and be happier.
Thank God I have a Job...
So I have been adding up how much everything I want to do on vacation is going to cost….HOLY SHIT..excuse my language… Since my skis don’t fit me anymore,and I don’t have the funds to buy new ones, I have to rent them…42 dollars a day…then a Lift ticket…59 dollars….So One day of skiing…101 dollars..Fuck you waterville valley!…Just kidding...
The Calling-Wherever you will go
I used to love...
= (
It's nights like these...
I’d rather live on the street, out in the cold, than live in my house.
SO I”M in everywhere. Everywhere I applied to at least. UMass Amherst, University of New England, University of New Hampshire, and University of Vermont. So I guess I only applied to universities. Mainly because they are the only ones with good environmental science programs..and I have a fear of changing my mind and not having enough options for majors. So this vacation I am applying to...
Oh, Cindy
I had the funniest conversation with my mother last night.
(phone rings)
Me: Hola
Mom: HI, what are you doing?
Me: I’m in the Marshall’s parking lot.
Mom: WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN THE MARSHALL PARKING LOT!!!??
Me: what the heck are you yelling about?
Mom:Your not “parking” are you!!??
Me: No Mom I’m shopping, what do you mean by “parking”?
Mom: I...
“And I claimed I didn’t care for you
But your verse got trapped inside my...”
– Paramore
And I think about summer,all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
and I realized I loved you in the Fall
and then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind.
-This verse to Back to December by Taylor Swift has been playing over and over in my head for a couple days…It reminds me of soooo many things and As much as I love this song, I hate it...
I love how I can go from being so excited about getting into college to being scared shitless within one night. All the sudden I have this feeling of an impending doom. Everyday this whole “future” thing is getting closer and closer. I feel like I’m not ready. I want to go backwards not forward. I’m terrified. I want to go back to elementary school and sit in my backyard...
UVM BITCHES!!!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhh I am so freakin Excited. I honestly thought that I would get denied by UVM…..I guess I should have gave myself more credit because I got in!!!
SOCIALLY AWKWARD →
geraldinelorbes:
imnotrunningaway:
alliehrndz:
littleprecious:
You check your phone, because you have nothing to contribute to the conversation.
Wait for the right time to say something, you get interrupted. Twice
Someone you vaguely know is walking in front of you. You maintain distance.
Hold the door for some. They’re slightly too far away.
Someone comes online, you say “hey”, they...
sometimes...
I feel like If I dissapeared for a little that nobody would even notice…Just a random thought as I’m falling asleep.
I have wayyy to much stuff on my mind right now.. I’m just want to fall asleep ) =
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So I really have nothing at all to write about. It’s weird. I want to write something meaningful/interesting, but I can’t. Nothings wrong, nothings fantastic. Nothing is giving me any inspiration. Life seems to be very bland at the moment. I can write about my day. Not that anyone cares..I woke up early and went to the post office to get a passport only to find out that my Birth...
I did it...
…I Got into basically my top choice school. So i knew that i’d most likely get into UNH but I’m still so freakin ecstatic that its official. I feel like maybe I might start to consider other schools more strongly but When it comes down to it UNH just feels right to me. But hey I have a while to make my decision and I can chill out until then…( =
On a side note: Things...
I hate distance. It gets in the way of so many things.
= ( There always has to be something wrong with me. I’m so tired of all this.